Tears Wiped Away

Have you ever asked yourself, why does this still really hurt me, why am I still crying about the same thing that I healed from, will the sorrow I see ever cease, or why am I still in pain, but there is no proof of hurt in my reality?

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I’ve been dwelling in John 17 for a few days because of a word from my sister in Christ, Danyiella.

God always uses His people to give you a word, an answer, or an action of love or lesson. In the scripture Jesus prays for himself, disciples, and believers along with soon to be believers. He made it clear that He wasn’t praying for the world, but His people. I’ve been having a hard week and I had to be in an environment with lukewarm christians that saddened my spirit. Like Jesus in despair & pain, I began to pray for myself, and my friends/disciples of Jesus. I drove home with my close friend that day and I opened up about pain and hurt I’ve been feeling for a long time even though I forgave and I have joy and so much love surrounded by healing. God gave me a revelation of pain. In scripture He says,

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”

‭‭Revelation‬ ‭21:4‬.

This is why pain and sorrow won’t leave the believer or soon to be believer. We will never live here on earth without this sorrow. It’s the only thing we can’t choose, nor cast out from our lives. There is something about pain being the hardest thing to live with, to feel, and to speak on because it’s so deep. I ask God, how can I have so much joy, be so loved, be forgiven and have so much love for others that caused me pain, I have no resentment, only love, but I still feel so hurt, I’m still crying, I still have sorrow, my tears are still being wiped away from you God constantly? God tells us in this life we will go through trial, tribulations, and many valleys of despair. He forewarns us that the trials of the righteous are many. We are purified, cleansed, and redefined by our pains and tribulations in life. Lord how much can I take? God also tells us how He doesn’t pray for the world mostly because He knows the heart of the wicked. He knows this with tears in His eyes.

“For I have told you often before, and I say it again with tears in my eyes, that there are many whose conduct shows they are really enemies of the cross of Christ.”

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭3:18‬ ‭

God prays many times, every day, and a lot of the time for the lost and His beloveds, but He mentions in Philippians this time how he is saddened with tears for the wicked. God knows who will believe in Him and who will never believe, so He prays.

Then as I came home from that hard day of tribulation, the third part of prayer came, praying for believers and soon to be believers in Jesus Christ. I came home and God led me to pray for my twin brothers and their friends one by one. I asked the Holy Spirit to pray through me and to say exactly what they needed to hear. That night I went to bed exhausted, but whole and thankful that I could pray like Jesus on this day and now forever reminded that there will be a day when every tear will be wiped away and we won’t have this sorrow and pain. The God of the universe is praying for me, my brothers, my family, my friends and their friends who do not YET live for Him. I believe someday the not YETS will believe in Jesus Christ, the one who was and is praying for them! I just lost a dear friend of mine back from OBHS and my heart breaks not just because he is gone but because I don’t know where he went. I’m hoping he declared Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior and knew the love of the Father. I pray that he repented before he took his last breath. I pray he isn’t being torchered for eternity. My spirit is grieved and my heart cries out for all of you that don’t know how loved you are. My prayer is that he was the thief on the cross that when to heaven with Jesus and that he took his last breath with Jesus.

“But the other criminal protested, “Don’t you fear God even when you have been sentenced to die? We deserve to die for our crimes, but this man hasn’t done anything wrong.” Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your Kingdom.” And Jesus replied, “I assure you, today you will be with me in paradise.”‭‭ Luke‬ ‭23:40-43‬

Kyle this is for you, I‘m sorry! 🤍

Carrie, I didn’t know this would be for you too. I miss you everyday, & yes God is still faithful my angel with Jesus 🥹🕊💛

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